Grant is five. He was walking alone to the garage to help me with a chore. Before I knew it, he came back with a look of fear.
“Pop,” he said. “There was a lot of noise back there.”
“I think it’s just the acorns hitting the garage roof,” I said, trying to calm him. It didn’t seem to help.
I decided to hold his hand so we could face this dragon together. Within a few steps of us walking on the crackly leaves, the light bulb went on.
“It was just the leaves; it was definitely the leaves,” he said confidently.
Why couldn’t he figure that out when he was alone? How did my presence help him discover the origin of his fear?
Over the past few years, I had been attempting a few chores myself for God and the dread I’ve been feeling seems awfully real. That Grant’s very feet were the source of the noise that caused the fear was an analogy the best writer couldn’t have made up.
In other words, it’s our very steps of faith that cause us anxiety. The obvious solution? Stop walking. The drawback? We start disobeying. Woe is me! What’s my excuse when there are no leaves on the ground?
I guess if fear actually drives us back to Pop for a little handholding, that’s OK. Perhaps that’s His Plan B all along. Pretty smart Pop. Or maybe He just likes a good walk with His kids?
“The Lord stands beside you…keeps you from all evil..The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go [over the noisiest leaves]. Psalm 121:5,7,8 – Brackets mine…and Grant’s.
LEFT: IN ALL FAIRNESS TO GRANT, THESE ARE THE CRUNCHIEST AND LOUDEST LEAVES I’VE EVER HEARD. RIGHT: “LEAVE-ING” FEAR BEHIND, FAITH JUMPING ON FEAR!